A Record of My Passage (Part 2)

respect. it’s not something you ask for. it’s something you receive as a result of the way you treat others. you don’t expect for it, when you don’t know how to give it, in the first place.i am usually the kind of person who respects even if i am not yet sure i’d be respected. but then, once i am disrespected, i take that respect away from you without warning.here in japan, high-ranking persons do not have to respect lower ones. it’s just not expected from them. it’s unfair sometimes, because bosses can shout at their subordinates and not be sorry for it, for the plain reason that it’s not expected of them to do so, while respecting bosses are to be done, by default, (almost) no matter what.

but i am not the kind of subordinate who allows the boss to scold me. i am not the kind. sadly boss, i can shout back at you. sadly boss, i can let you know how stupid are your reasons and how so deafening is your voice. always. always. sadly boss, i wanted so much to tell you that the reason why i don’t give a damn having my back on you during our everyday morning meetings, is because, you never brush your teeth and i would like to tell you, “nioi ga suru kara.” i wish i was able to tell you that.

i wish.

sadly boss, i am not the kind of subordinate who just smiles at your stupid reasons when scolded. sadly boss, i am not so japanese. and you can not shout at me just like that. you’re so OA. you talk without ceasing. you answer without even knowing what the question was, you claim you debugged our code when all you did was testing. boss, there’s a difference. debugging is taking away bugs. you’re damn too proud of doing the tests and claiming you’re the reason for all those bugs fixed. ha? stupid! stupid!

you brag about your more than 10-year software programming experience. how could you replace a 10-liner code with more than 1000 lines, for readability? worst, boss, we’re doing an embedded project. worst, boss, you go for readability over code-size and speed despite the obvious great difference.  gosh boss, i’m sick of you. how could you change static-to-file variables to global variables, telling, you wanted to access variables from all over. gosh, boss! it’s crazy! it’s plain crazy.

i wish i could leave you now. but i can’t. so, let me just give you a slice of my indifference. pathetic!