why people fail?
September 25, 2007 
We never plan to fail, we just fail to plan.
Almost always, the very reason why people fail…
inspiring
September 18, 2007 
Word Of God Speak
i was drowned by my own emotions until i listened to this song.
Word Of God Speak
by: MercyMe
This is lyrics from www.lyrics007.com
I’m finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it’s okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say
[CHORUS]
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak
I’m finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice
[REPEAT CHORUS 2x]
I’m finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it’s okay
for him
September 16, 2007 
i was biking today from a friend’s pad to mine and then i noticed an old man carrying a heavy load (sack of something) with his back so bended and his almost-bald head wet with sweat. i passed by him as i am tired and thirsty. the minute i passed by him, i felt for him, i squeezed the brake and thought of something i should be doing. then i ended up making a right turn to “Life” Supermarket and grabbed a drink and bread for him.
I went out, searched for him, and pedaled as fast as i could to hand over these items to him. But i couldn’t find him.
until now, i am wondering whether he’s gotten himself something to eat and drink. i wish i had instead invited him to come with me to “Life”.
imagine
Imagine me being handed the User Manual of a part of a Debugging Board on July 15, creating design documents and code snippets along the way, attending design reviews and listening to suggestions/corrections.
Imagine me, confidently feeling I could meet the deadline until I found out when I receive the Debugging Board that my program won’t work, despite how many times I counterchecked the User Manual and Specifications given to me.
Imagine me wondering for a long time why somewhere along the way, the program stops to behave well. And I am saying, I have been rendering overtime until the last train leaves.
Imagine me consulting why the program behaves abnormally only to be told I had to review the documents given to me, i might have missed something.
Imagine me doing as they said in cycle only to find out, after almost two months, that I had been given the wrong User Manual and External Specification Document. Simply said, the debugging board I am using, does not match the documents given to me.
Imagine that!
And I think I won’t catch the deadline. I don’t wanna be scolded. They don’t wanna give me extension and I don’t wanna consume myself working too much either.
I am so tired.
To those who do not understand: I was given a manual to create a key for a door not yet done. The manual given would help me create a perfect key for the door to open. The door was given, the key I created didn’t work. I checked the manual to see if I missed something. Nothing. I went to tell them that the door won’t open, I was told to review the key against the manual given. Surprise… Surprise…. the manual given is the manual to create a key for a different door. And no, we could not change the door. I need to change the key. I need to read another set of documents and create a key all over again. ALL OVER AGAIN.
i am in trouble…
Why can’t we just sleep peacefully through thunders, storms and heavy rains and wake up seeing the sun shining brightly, feeling like it never rained (nor thundered nor stormed) at all?
Why can’t we just walk away when things are in trouble and get back with things already fixed? like magic.
low batt but fully recharged
I was gonna say Thank GOD it’s Friday (last Friday) for I have been wanting to take a break from the pressure that my career brings. I have been rendering OVERTIME quiet a lot and I hate it. I don’t know if anyone loves rendering extra hours at work especially if you aren’t paid. Yes, we are not paid. And even if we are paid, I really hate rendering overtime. Well, more because, I do not find myself enjoying my work and the borderline between work and fun is so so crystal clear.
That said, I was feeling the highness that Friday brought until my leader asked me to render OT the next day, Saturday. My groupmate’s gonna be working and he said he would appreciate it if I come too, so I could help him fix errors since it’s hard for him to understand the errors and warnings (presented in English). I felt good because I felt needed but then I dread working when I shouldn’t. Saturdays and Sundays are my days off from work. These are the days for me to breath and recharge after getting myself consumed on weekdays. But in a minute, I was stupified at the sound of my leader telling me I am needed, and I did say, I will come after my badminton. Maybe around 2pm.
Only, after I went back to my seat did I realize that I was so stupid! While on my bed, that night, I was never able to convince myself that I should go. I woke up early to play badminton and at 10 a.m, my officemate gave me a ring. I missed his first call but then, in the middle of the game, I was able to talk to him and he told me that something went wrong and even if I go, we couldn’t work. So, I’d have to wait until they’re able to fix it. Of course, that painted a big smile on my face. I had hoped they wouldn’t be able to fix it so that I won’t be asked to go. I had lunch with Idel and we planned to go biking from 3pm.
Unfortunately, my officemate rang, telling me I needed to go and help him. But I said NO. Brave me! Biking is far more fun than working. Off we went to biking from 3pm to 8pm. Of course, we rested in between. I was glad I didn’t work. Though biking was consuming my energy, I felt recharged. It’s just so different consuming your energy with the things you love to do. I felt recharged though I had almost zero energy when I parked my bike. Ironic.
wondering whether or not my boss would tell me to quit being a programmer and become a biker instead….
